How my Trauma Impacted Me

Recently I asked my community if there were any questions they would love me to answer on the podcast and there were some juicy ones, so over the next couple of months, along with my usual episodes, I’m going to be coming in to share with you the answer to these questions.
So - the question that I’m going to be answering today had a few elements to it… And the question was...
What did your trauma feel like? How did it play out in my life? Did I have any physical responses in my body? What was my mindset and what were my thoughts like pre healing?
There is another part to this question which talks about what my healing looks like, and I’m going to answer that in the next episode.
So - let’s do this.
Why did my trauma feel like?
It’s a really interesting question - because while I knew I had experienced trauma, and continued to do so over a few years - I don’t think I actually acknowledged that that’s what it was.
The sexual assault happened when I was 15 and it wasn’t until I was 30 that I started to heal from that. For those 15 years, I very much kept it a secret and would only tell a few people about what had happened.
So I would say it played out through suppression, avoidance and numbness.